thought nine: when I grow up.

"What do you want to be when you grow up?" It's a question every kid is asked when they're little. Then it turns into "What do you want to do when you finish school?" or "What do you want to study at uni?" 

Some kids want to be firefighters, some want to be ballerinas. When I was little I told my Mum I was going to be a Nun because boys have germs (I thought it was get married or become a Nun- simple, black or white). 

The problem is, I'm not that little girl anymore (and I'm married now, so the Nun option's out the window) but still don't really know what I want to be?

I've been working in a high school and I really enjoy it. Just helping out the teachers with kids who need a little extra support. It's wonderful getting alongside the kids and helping them learn, understand and figure out how they fit in life. There's never a better moment than when you've helped a teenager discover something for the first time. 

Option 1: High School Teacher.

But what subject?

I love Art.

Social Ethics.

(that's about it)

Then there's the creative side of life. I love creating, making, designing,  painting. I used to design cards for art galleries and small boutique shops. Mostly children's designs. Here are a few:

Can I do something creative? Artistic? 

Option 2: Graphic Designer. 

But that involves a whole lot of university!

Do I follow something I love but am pretty bog standard at or do I just stick at something that most people can do? A job is not my identity, it just pays the bills so should I get this worked up about it? Should I just do something? 

The thing is, my husband is a Youth Worker at our local church and I get pretty stuck in helping him. So whatever I do for money I need it to work with helping serve there. That is incredibly important to me and I love working with him as a team serving Jesus. 

This thought doesn't really have an ending, it doesn't have an answer. Just rambling really. But it helps. Helps me to organise my thoughts. I think I will leave creativity as a hobby and follow a path that will help pay the bills at the end of each month. It's starting to look a lot like teaching Social Ethics is the answer.